People Pleasing
Self-betrayal. Self-abandonment. Self-annihilation. Soul suicide.
Pruning taken too far.
Dis-integrated.
Dismantled.
Dismembered.
A hand here,
an arm there,
my heart in pieces,
…parts of myself
scattered here, there,
and everywhere.
I cut off my limbs,
watered myself down,
shrank my feelings,
compromised what I wanted,
and muted my expression,
segmenting myself into palatable,
bland bits for your comfort,
consumption, and pleasure.
I dis-integrated myself,
exiling parts of myself
that I thought you might not like.
I banished them, and for what?
Some cheap masquerade
of acceptance that was anything but?
All to get my needs met
in the cheapest
and most ineffective ways,
all the while
making myself weaker,
and weaker.
Self-betrayal. Self-abandonment. Self-annihilation. Soul suicide.
Pruning taken too far.